To the people who haven't, id like you to read this blog first. i think my most personal and driven thing I've ever written.






http://vallinor.blogspot.com/2006/07/utopia.html


Thanks.

Anki, get a girlfriend for yourself.
Ya, right,forget it.

This has been one of our most repetitive conversations. her telling me to move on and my defiance. But what is moving on. does it mean i stop loving her. or does it mean i start going around with someone else. i think it means i no longer have any hopes attached with her and dont close myelf to the coming days.
i wont stop loving her. but will i ever agree to start going out with someone.
which leads me to the question thats been bugging me for a few days.(bear with me please, this is the first time that im writing something without feeling any kind of a high).

Do i need a girlfriend?

the answer in a simple yes or no could be impossible but if we take strict answers then answer might be No. i can survive without a girlfriend. survive and be happy.


but would it be so much better for me if i had a special someone. id like to have someone i can call up in the middle of the night and say i love you to.
someone i can hold in my arms and whisper soft endeearments to.