Why,What,Where,When,How .................. just too many questions........and who will give us the answers .................. God supposedly gave us the answers in his great books - Bible, Gita, Upanishads etc.. But I dont believe in them at all times. Better to ask ourselves.

What is love ................ why are we here .................. why do bad thoughts dominate my mind........Why? Why? Why? Why ? Why am I so frustrated?
Love........the most important word in our dictionary probably. Something we all search for and find in some way or the other. What is it really? People say they what it is, I dont believe them. It has a diffrent association for everyone. I dont know much.........too confused....only that you havent known true love till you have had your heart trampled, broken and fucked.
only after you have lost all hope of achieving that which you hold dear will you learn it's importance. After every loss we act like we were idiots to have run after it. But the truth is we are trying to diminish its value in our minds.........brainwashing ourselves. So we do not feel bad that we have lost something precious. It's a lie. We wanted it. It was precious for us. Now we have to live without it. So why not make life a little easier.
Do you know the answer? I am not even sure if I understand what I am asking.
Love gives me wings. It makes me invincible as long as I have to do something for my love. For the reason of my life. But the moment we loose it we come crashing down. Too Bad. Face it ravely and don't lie to yourself. Illusions don't help. Utopia is not real.
Love kills, love gives, love takes. Still it rules supreme.
Maybe it is the reason we live. Only to find more love. Or to spread more love. Or sometimes to destroy love.

When I am in love I want to take care of that person, let her know I am there for her. Feel her presence inside me. Feel her in the air. I want to really know her. What her needs are and what her fears are. Qench her thirst for life. bring her every hapiness I possibly can.
But alas. Something will always marr it. We cannot have this perfection.

We shout at life for being unfair. for taking away my love from me, or denying me my love. but we should also thank life for ever letting that love be there. For letting us know how it feels to surrender yourself to someone else. To take care of and to be taken care off. To have given meaning to life even if for a short while.
We all have an infinite capacity to love.
But do we use it?

Thank you life.......for showing me what true beauty is.


Arul Vanorien