i have this urge ... this need to be high .....
to loose myself ... to fly .. to dream to sink to swim

to let go and gain control after i regain my senses .....

why do we want to be high .. i dont about you ... but i think one of my reasons is because of the detachment ... when we loose control of ourselves .. our restraints ... our .. taught and learn't nature .... we become who we really are .... i loose all sensation except the truth seeping inside myself .... the real me ............

im floating in a dream ..i can be high on water if my mind wants to .. i can go high on floyd .. i can be high on emotions ... i can be high on alcohol (rather .. rarely 'used to be')

i can looose my inhibitions .... just feel and forget the emotions the go through me ...
i write best when im in a state like this .. maybe because at that moment of time nothing is true except for what i am and who i am ... i can feel the real me calling out to break the chains of reality and accept the truth ..... to be I and not ME .....

the me i am not the me ive learnt be ............