I was jsut sending a reply to my didi on the loveable sin that is facebook and by the end of the post I had a realisation ... i really miss her. Like crazy. I wish i could loot her once again like i used to at Dilli Haat or whisper at her engagement when i saw my jiju for the first time "wah di, what a catch!" ... or walk her back to her PG and then half na hour later hear her scream at me for waliing abck home and not taking an auto ... or how id make excuses about not having money and shed try n thrust notes into my hand ... eating pan with her or making fun of how short she is ... God she even almost got me inside a beauty salon once!!!

Missing someone you havent seen in a long while makes sense. But there are other reasons which drove me to think and therefore i write here, clearing my thoughts and searching for the answer as always.

So ive never had a sister. Cousins galore but the ones ive grown close to are all younger than me. I never had too many elder cousins to look upto on a regular basis except for pintu bhaiya so i guess it makes ense that after being the elder brother to all my cousins and Aksay i felt a longing ofr a sister. Somehow sisters have been too special for me in my life and I've tried to fill that void up and the life has been lucky to a great extent. Three family friends that i can count have played a phenomenal role in my life, each at their stage. Even they used to be friends but now its a 2-1 division. Sad.

But Rohini di, theres something about her. Pallavi di was there when i was in high school and early college. Shikha di both later and earlier. But Rohini di had just eclipsed out of my life for nearly a decade and half till i found her on Orkut. And ever since i met her during my internships in Delhi shes been everything i could ask for. A friend, counselor and guardian. A friend but she is nothing short of family for me. She's the cutest little thing and when she scholds something makes me cow down like a little child (or a cow). She's the advisor ive always looked for. And the fact that her parents are amongst the sweetest and most amazing people ive ever met jsut makes it feel even warmer.

I miss you di, a lot. And knowing I can feel so strongly for you makes me happy. I finally have one of the five people i was searching for. Let the other four make their way through till then ive got my didi. :) :) :)