"im thirst for your love..dancing underneath th skies of lust"

love and lust can make you do crazy things.....im obsessed with love....it defines me....
i guess thats just the most repetitive line of all my entires.......it defines me....angel,,,thas what i used to call her...still rem when i had first talked to her...properly...
her voice..it was like a thousand chimes singing in harmony with the rain laden wind...
her stare as she stood silently was like the glimmer of a million stars..all sparkling in a perfect sky as the sun set in a rise..and the rainbow suddenly jumped out of nowhere.....
the luciosu curve of her lips as she said hi...the rare moment in life when i was suddenly deaf..adn then back to normal..listenin to her beautifull voice..as it seared through my brain...burning me into a lust i did not know i could posses..
lust not of the skin..lust of the high..the highg of love....its worse than any drung youve ever heard of ...
once youve just felt it...jsut seen it..you ache for it...you cant stay alive without htinking about it every 3.09757 seconds..
its the dominant ..the prima...the Sngular thought that keeps churning in your mind....

man.....that day...when i had met her properly for the first time...she ..she was an angel...i saw her on her balcony.....flexing as the wind rustled through her dress and the setting sun shone on her beautifull face...a glory to the beauty god could create..only once..
the tender dance of the wind as it flirted around her body..the cloth flapping in the wind...teasing me for another glance of her face......
i caressed the wind as it slowly brough a scent of her to me..a scent so divine that no words can define it..
the king of all drugs.,..just once single sniff and i was captivated.....
why....why did i fall in love.!!!
too late now...its already done...(forget for a moment the tragedy and live on the beauty that can make you survive)........she came gliding down the slope of the road..walking ..or gliding on it..i could not see what...i was trasfixed on her face
on beauty...divine...the feeling of love as it surged through my body...tearing my muscles into a mass of liquid tension..my knees buckled and i almost fell.....
ill tell ya more someday later......right now i think ill jsut go and kill myself....
signed -
a lover forever in love with the one person he cannot have