i have felt love...true and pure.
true love is that which is pure and divine.
true love is the love forlorn. the love hurt. the love ignored. the raw feeling of guilt you get from just seeing her face in tears. how you feel helpless at her first sob. how you can just tear the world apart for her haphappiness. how you can throw your own love for her into the rubbish just so that you can make her happy once again. how you can feel the pain, of love.

nothing hurts worse than love.

i have been in love. and i belive it happens only once. ive been there. i never will again. atleast not in the same way. my life is a big mess and i know not what to do with it. its a mess. its my mess. i have to live with it. even if it means shunning that which defiens me, away from me./ dont know what ive written so ill just shut up n go lie down.