what is love
is it the feeling you get when you reach the top of your hill, called life, look down at it and then fall down,not into the abyss of the mountain but into the arms of the one you love
love is divine, it hurts it cures. it feels it numbs, its warmth can chill you to the bones and leave you crying in desperation.
my life can be so hollow at times. my love is gone, shes no more a part of my life. the difination of me is no more. but i seek love again.i know i will never find it, but the very purity and strenght of love is so strong that the lusr ofr it can drive a man mad for a life time. i search for those warm hadns that can shelter me from the cold when i lie crying on the floor. love is warmth, it is the fire that kindles deep inside you, one that can burn all your fears away and liberate yyou from the dark assaults of time and sorrow, of pain and betrayel.
i seek a companion, not a lover, becuase i myself do not belive that anyone can love me like i have loved once. I stare back at those days, a stranger to the feeling again. did i betray her. did i betray myself.
no. she left me stranded in the rain. i had no option but to go back home if i had to survive, or i could have withered in the swallows of her quicksand.
i seek love, or atlest someone to hold on to. someone i can hold onto. someone i can love. someone whom i can take care of. caress her hair and whisper sweeet nothings in her ears. drown myself in the drunkeness of her eyes, be lost in the mystique of her life and to float away in the scent emanating from her body and feel the warmth of her soul. i want to love.
i want to survive. i want to live.
Oneday, i will find her. find my wife, my partner for the travels of life. find my love, my beauty, my inspiration, my love, my lady, my life, my definition, my compliment ,my supplement. find taht which makes me ME
your situation arul,seems unjustificable...inpite of citing your own self as a psycho...which, most people do these days, you cry through your writings everytime you write....using words as if they would ease out the pain.....they say it does, but actually it doesnt....it just gives you the illusion of your thoughts gettin shared...and i know you dont want to share them at all....you just hold intrest in potraying thoughts....
ReplyDeleteYOu always write 'bout getting betrayed.....but you are'nt the only man in the world to get betrayed....you should write something about this, or other things, cause your situation holds common, life never is that rosy ......
"you may say you're a loner,
but your not the only one"
and im anonymous, feels so bad to be adviced by an anonymous moron who does'nt even have the guts to show his own identity..
But you know...you know it well...that you shoud just get stuff that you need, additionals are a waste
I might not have understood you,infact im sure i havent...but it does nt matter in relevance to the part that is really meant for you
hello anonymous. im not able to gather how your saying my position is justifiable. missing the point taht i am not portraying anything for justification here. just puting my feelings out there. dude/gal ive been through a lot of shit. and ive learnt that writing stuff out here doesn help me. i can honestly say that. thats coz once you go through some shit,, you wanna think about it. i think about it a lot. and finnaly let the frustration out here. if you knew me personally, i mean if your a person who meets me face to face. the real purpose of my writings would be visible to you.
ReplyDeleteas nawab had said ina previous comment.
"now i know how u calm down from all the chaos."
this writing lets me be the man i am to the public, the carefree idiotic numbnut i am in front of them is possible only coz i write out all the sad and bad parts here...and love the rest of my life n the people in it as m,uch as i can
then again iwant to share my thoughts..coz then the whole magnitude of the thing comes down. when you share something. it helps in the healing. again i dont want the people to know who i really am , or to acknowledge that this is me and you knwo this is me.
my own reasons for that.
again if youve read my older posts you would know that i know that what i write are common situations. they happen to everyone. people always come up to me and say that when they read my blog they felt as if i had written about them.
that is exactly why i write. im able to connect with my people, my pals, we can all see each otehr so much better. and ya lenon was wrtite when he said that..thats another irrefutable trouth.
and if i do contradict myself, that just shows what a big mess life is. and udde since i never take names here, that just amplifies the feeling of COMMONNESS
and if i felt bad about annonymous replies i would ahve disabled it. i guess thats why i use an alias aswell, a mask can set you free. free to o so many things you otherwise would never even have thought of.
and id be glad if you havent understood me completely, that would have been too scary.
and ya i didnt get this
"But you know...you know it well...that you shoud just get stuff that you need, additionals are a waste"
hey arul i jus wanna say tht the feelings u ve portrayed bout love are beautiful. well one thing-u know me-n u wrote this blog after talkin to me. still cant let ppl know who i m-i guess u'll understand the reason. i remember wen i told u everything about tht day wen i met him-i was goin crazy n u too hehe n then u wrote this blog-about LOVE -a feelin pure and special. thanks for writing every blog tht u write-thx for portraying ur feelings so beautifully n thx for lettin me see life thru ur point of view and FEEL wat u feel-about love n about life. get goin da-m proud of u. really u r the best
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